want to fire almost everyone with whom I work. (With the exception of two). I am sick of the whining, complaining, "sick outs" and out-right insubordination.

No one, in this economy is going to get a 50% raise "because you whined for one."
Full time work is 40 hours, not 23ish.
If you are scheduled to work at the top of the hour, yes, a quarter past that is LATE. (There is no "pretty much on time.")

Seriously -- with so many people wanting to work, why are there so damn many with jobs who spend all of their work day bitching and complaining about every little thing.

If you are unhappy, quit!

here I come ----- again.
I have come to the conclusion that I am never quite happy with where I am in life. It is becoming more of a problem as I get older (and not much wiser). I tend to seek employment in places that I am not challenged, but I have some sense of security. I tend to date the same type of man, even though that "type" obviously in not working for me. The strange thing is, I tend to do this a lot in life. Not necessarily a bad thing, it is just who I am.
I sometimes feel as though I need to really get to know myself again. I know who I should be, but do I know who I really am?
How many times can one person start over?

everything would have been completely different had either of us said anything 20 odd years ago. But, things being different is not always better.
I have sooooo many decisions to make. I hate making decisions. Not in a wishy-washy way, but more of a "rethinking everything after the dust has settled" kind of thing.

Decision #1:
Do I really want to go back to graduate school??? It is expensive, and time consuming, and I really like being a couch potato when not at work.

Decision #2:
Should I rent my house out and move into my Mom's massive house? It could put me in a position to not work (or barely work) if I do go back to school.

Decision #3:
Should I attempt to rekindle a relationship with someone I should have dated years ago, but never acted on it.

I really hate decisions.

One decision I did make that I am happy about....Cat Christmas Card photo shoot has been booked! YAYAYAYAYAY

So I am back from working everywhere but home. I have decided to go back to school (BLECK!) I have learned several things since I have decided to torture myself with the idea of "additional education." Specifically:
1) School got EXPENSIVE
2) My Masters is now too old to have any value
3) It will take at least four years of 25 hours per week on top of working full time
4) I am obviously insane and irrational to even think of going back to school
So there you have it. I am insane, soon to be a lot more broke than I already am, and outdated educationally speaking.
I realize that starting "over" while pushing 40 is not always the greatest of ideas, but I am feeling like I need to do something. Something other than what I'm currently doing. Now the true question is....what in the hell do I study???

Insanefully yours!

I know, I know -- welcome to California -- it gets "hot" in the summer. I have been blessed this summer -- very cool and not very "Air Conditioner" required. I got spoiled -- I got used to the $70 utility bills. Then BLAM -- heat. I knew it was time to turn on the AC last night when one of the cats sat on the AC vent and looked at me as if to say "you know how to make this cool my kitty booty so do it!"
I changed my default to a photo of my puppygirl. She thinks she is one of the cats. She is a rescue dog, and she was amazing in motivating me to walk after my knee surgery. I will try and get some better photos later.
I do have a new job, which I am feeling better about. I do think I need to go back to school though, as a back up. (Not that I have the time or the money --lol). I hate having very little job security. Just in general. I am so thankful that I have a Masters Degree, simply because it did get me in the door for interviews. Of course it is outdated now -- lol.
I am almost 40. I do not "feel" almost 40. I am the oldest person in my office -- it is strange -- when did I "grow up?"

I'm off like a dirty shirt!

what in the world happened in the 78 weeks since my last post???? I:
got injured at work
complained a lot at work
got a dog!
had knee surgery
was "severanced"
was "unseveranced"
was "downsized"
was hired
was living in L.A. for three months
transferred back
reminded that I miss updated this journal.

And what have you been up to?????

Needless to say -- it is RAINING here. Bad. (Or Badly?? Grammar police???) My house is safe (I live behind the police department, so my power never goes out for very long, the flood waters are ALWAYS pumped (for the police cars -- and for me of course) and I live on a slight hill, so water will probably never (knock on wood) flood my actual house.

I am not living paycheck to paycheck. The building where I work was damaged today by the storm, and some of the "non-salaried" people were worried about getting enough hours in their next paycheck.

I am in excellent health (except for my ACNE problem - lol). Although I did fall at work today -- it was my fault, and I DO have an excellent bruise (or three) to show off.

I have options. I can always find work. I can work anywhere from a restaurant to corporate America. I can find work in a variety of fields. I can legally work in this country and do not have to worry about the "what ifs" of unemployment for long. (Yes, I did take 8 months off, but most of that was by choice).

Whenever I get lonely (seasonal depression is sometimes a little too much) I take out my holiday cards and read them. It is a reminder that someone liked me enough to spend a moment sending me a card. I have folders of cards going back forever just in case.

I have the freedom to practice the religion of my choice. I can also be friends with people with different belief systems.

I need to focus on why I am fortunate...
not on things like
my "new" work building pretty much no longer has a roof
I want to fall in love again, but fall into the same bad patterns I always have "men wise"
I am PUSHING 40!

Sigh. The cats and I are warm, dry and employed (I am, not the cats). I am very fortunate!

I had to go to the OB/GYN today for a follow-up appointment. "They" put me back on BC pills and today I had to go in to make sure I was not having any problems. The doctor asked me if the pills were helping with my acne. (Ummmmm, what acne? I don't have acne! What???????) She then asked me if I wanted a prescription for acne meds. (Ummmmm, what acne? I don't have acne! What???????) I told here that I don't tend to have an acne problem, other than OCCASIONALLY from hormones. Totally confused, I get to the car and look in the mirror -- ONE TINY SPOT NEAR THE CORNER OF MY MOUTH is apparently "acne."
My God -- I thought crows feet were all I had to worry about. Now I have an "acne problem." Wrinkles and acne should not be a problem at the same! I feel so young, yet so old.

Until tomorrow!

I'm baaaaaaaack!

I am working again. I am working for a major corporation (who shall remain nameless because they do love to find employee blogs). I am basically a middle manager who has no clue what in the h-e-double hockey sticks is going on. I sign my name to a lot of paperwork and sit through meetings clueless and trying to look only partially overwhelmed.

I do love my job though. The people I work with are really nice, and it is nice to be amongst the employed again. The cats are still adjusting to my no longer being able to be at their beck and call 27/7. It is a daily struggle for them I am sure.

Until tomorrow!

Just a quick note to let you know that I will be back to updating in 2008!!